How do I move on and start over when I still don't understand what happened in the first place? In an hour and 20 minutes it went from "I love you and miss you" to "You have a selfish and hateful attitude so goodbye". And all I said was "So I'm in a holding pattern. OK....I can deal with that".
My heart is absolutely broken and my mind is beyond confused. I don't understand how in just a week we went from good as gold to over. I don't understand how just asking for 10 minutes of his time so he could explain to me face to face what was going on made me selfish and hateful. Maybe it was the way I approached it.
He had always told me that being open with how I was feeling was what he wanted. I've kind of figured out that isn't always the best policy. Sometimes just keeping your mouth shut will save you a lot of misery and pain.
So where do I go from here? Right now I'm just fighting the urge not to text, call or email him to apologize for everything. I'm hoping that once things settle down, we can come together again and maybe work this out. I still love him, more than I thought possible, and I don't want to loose him forever, especially like this.
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